Is it me or is it getting hot again? Two nights ago it was raining really hard around midnight in Boston. Thunder and lightning pounded the city like there was no tomorrow. Man I thought it was like in the movie "War of the Worlds" when the thunder kept on bolting.  There was so much noise that I had to wake up and look outside the windows awaiting for the robots to start blasting their lasers and turning people into ashes.

Too much movies for me. But I cannot help it, with a month left I might as well watch just a few more.

Anyways I think I'm still on cloud nine right now. Not much stress and I feel physically better. A lot of rest does help and so does reading books. Hope this feeling sticks with me during the school year.

I'm not getting any younger, and as I see myself today I feel I have grown substantially. Then again with one bad choice what I have gain over the years can be lost. So to note to myself never be too over confident.

I feel like I'm on Cloud 9 right now. Everything is going just right for me. I am in harmony with my soul and mind. I feel physically healthy and my mind is ready for college again. With less than a month to prepare for senior year I have never dreamt of such an opportunity. I am happy that I am almost finished with college, two more years. I hope my family will be proud of me, but more I hope I will be proud of myself when I do graduate.

I remember the night of my high school graduation. I took that did not as serious as I should. I overlooked at what was actually taking place and never fully appreciated what that day meant to me and my family. I was the first in my family to recieve a high school diploma, and all I remember from that day was ignoring my parents calling me when I was still at the podium and asked to have a picture taken. Note I really couldn't hear my parents calling me, but knowing afterwards made me feel really bad inside. I cannot regret ever that I never appreciated that day for it is in the past and I am at the present. Time and events happen on a continous basis. It is like the rising and setting of the sun and the moon.

All I can do is to feel gratified when I graduate college. No longer shall I believe that five years of college is a burden. Every essay I write, every formula I evaluate, and every time I write a integral, I will appericate the moment. I was given a opportunity to learn and with little stress to none given from my family I greatfully thank you.

I am no longer thinking about what my future holds. Rather I just do what I have to do and appreciate every moment of it. Sometimes I may have to give up the things that I want to do the most or want to have the most. It is from other's advice and my own experience that I will decide when to give up and when to give in. But what ever I decide I cannot regret and look back wishing I had done something different. For there are many decisions to be made in life.

Final thought within the boundaries of my attempt to reach deep into what I want the most. I ask myself, "is it really what I want? If so then work for it." I believe that the greater sacrifices one makes in order to get what they want the more they cherish about their accomplishments. One doesn't necessary have to achieve great things in order to feel great appreciation for himself. Instead he only has to understand what it takes to accomplish his dreams. Whether he succeeds or not is entitled only to his own decision. He does not need recognition of others but himself. If he knows what it takes and then he will know where he stands in this universe.

On another note, I want to start downloading Naruto now! I want my Naruto! Ok till next time when I am willing to type gibberish again.